new site

http://www.xanga.com/undecided_heart13

hey guys. i sweat today was national piss megan off day instead of aprils fools day. i was like happy in the start of the day until english when alex and dustin purposely sayin ur mom just to piss me off! it was sooooo effin annoying. like they did that the whole day when they saw they wud do pretty much everything the cud just to piss me off and it worked.

then theres a bunch of drama goin on.... which i dont feel like dealin w/ or need to add to all the other crap i have goin on. y cant ppl just tell the truth instead of lying constantly. it sux cuz its like 2 ppl lying bout each other and like its hard to tell whoes being honest and whoes lying so yeah it sux.

i had dance 2night like usual.. i got yelled at 4 not bein sure if i remembered part of my dance. mrs gaspers just like do u know it and im laughed a little and said sorta and shes likes not funny u have a show in a wk and ur goin to be on stage and u need to know ur dance and was just yellin at me but o well. me and brittany were having fun doin this little dance we made up to sex on the beach it was gr8!

but im gonna go lyl Megan.

pod: jam

qod: that wasnt me wat r u talkin bout lol yesterday at hardees brittany

sod: sex on the beach

heres a poem i wrote in science cuz i was bored

hey guys. so a lot and not so much has been gion on.

i keep changing my mind bout mike. but ive decided to give up on him. i kinda decided that the person i thought was worth the entire world to me is barely worth the time of day. hes a good friend but 2 big of a player. i dont get him. but o well it doest matter... im finally ok w/o him and im just gonna hold my head up high and be single.

i kinda like another guy but idk... i was gonna ask him to the dance and i decided not 2. i think for right now im just gonna be single and lovin it. just gonna be w/ the girls and live life to the fullest.

my header to me is important... cuz its sum things i deffinatly need to learn. its so hard for me to do what im doin.. i mean movin on but hopefully ill make it. and if i try to change my mind bout mike again sum1 plz slap me... and im not even kidding just slap me i need sum sensed slapped into me so do it.

well i have dance everyday starting tommorow except for monday and wednesday. thast a crap load of dance! lol think i might try out for fall danceline. not sure tho. wat do u guys think? i heard theres pretty much no sophmores tryin out. i think it wud be fun but idk if i wanna ad that to much schedule. ill think bout it tho.

dance saturday at 8:30pm u shud all go!!!!!! bunch of us girls r gonna get ready and make shirts together so that shud be awesome! o yeah hope u like my profile pic guys its fromt the summer i miss the summer... but its almost here. i plan on doin sum major partying! yesss! by the way girls in the pic we must do that again 5 ppl in one of those small photo booths! totally fun. gotta do that again and b4 summer!

well im out ill talk to sum of ya later! lyl Megan.

qod: the unsaid words r the words that hurt the most (so made that up right now i had a good one earlier but i 4got it! lol)

sod: save me_unwritten law

pod: kjersten

"Save Me"

Had a bad day, don't talk to me,
gonna ride this out,
My little black heart, breaks apart,
with your big mouth.

And I'm sick of my sickness
Don't touch me, you'll get this.
I'm useless, lazy, perverted,
and you hate me.

You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wakeup call,
And everything, everything's my fault.

Went to the doctor, and I asked her,
to make this stop. (whoa)
Got medication, a new addiction,
Fucking thanks a lot.

I had to relapse, I'm bad at rehabs
It ruins everything. (whoa)
So point your finger, at the singer,
He's in the pharmacy.

You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wake up call,
and everything's my fault.

You can't save me,
You can't blame me,
Well I'm waiting here to take a fall,
and everything, and everything's my fault.

And I'm a death threat haven't slept yet,
Baby why the wake up call
I'm the bad boy tell the tabloids
everything's my fault.

Whoa whoa whoa yeah, write it write it,
Whoa Whoa whoa everything's my fault,
everything's my fault.

I went to heaven, but couldn't get in,
For what I have done.
I said please take me, they said you're crazy
you had too much fun.

You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wake up call,
and everything's my fault.

You can't save me,
You can't blame me,
Well I'm waiting here to take a fall,
and everything, everything's my fault.

You can't save me,
You can't change me,
You can't save me,
You can't change me,
You can't save me,
You can't change me,(everything's my fault)
You can't save me,
You can't change me,

Everything's my fault

hey guys. decided it was time to change the look again. i added a couple of songs to my play list too.

cant wait for this wkend. mostly saturday. its gonna be a girls night. me and bree decided that. the only thing that is goin to have to do w/ guys is talkin bout them! lol. cuz lord knows us girls r good at that. but i seriously need a girls night. its just been crazy lately. i want to get away from guys for at least one night. ok so i guess were goin to the dance and theres gonna be guys there but theres dancing involved so theres automatic fun! i love dance. i hope i dont end up havin ballet rehersal tho! that wud piss me off soooo effin bad.

i was soooo wired today. not sure y i just was. i gotta talk bout sum crap that was buggin me so that was good. idk wat id do w/o my girls theyre always there! u guys r the best and i luv u all to death!!!

well im gonna go. heres sum quotes enjoy em!

love - we think about it . dream about it . sing about it *
lose sleep about it . when we don`t have it we search
for it . when we discover it we don`t kno what to do »
with it . when we have it we`re afraid of 'losing it . it`s
the short word that`s easy to spell . difficult 2 define'&
(_.`´¯`» | ii m p o s s ii b l e | to live without -x3

if yOu LooK iNsiDe a GirL`s
   [*.H - e - a - R - t.*]
yOu`D sEe HoW MuCh ShE
      :'ReaLLy': criEsZ
 y0u'll finD secrets hidden,
    Best friends, and Lies
   .. buT . whaT .y0u`LL .
       See . thE . Most .
           .. is hOw ..
          l| [ HarD ] | l
          it iS to sTay 
          [ ( strOng ) ]
   wheN Nothing`s right
 anD EveRythinG is wrong

Always tell someone how you feel
mean wat u say [n] say wat u mean
even  when  its  hard  - - » because
opportunities are lost in a blink of
an eye * /  * but  regrets can last a
♥ .  :  L . i . F . e . T . i . M . e  :  . ♥

Sometime's i  wish i could just walk out the door
and      not      have         to        worry     anymore
cuz   with [ all ] the   thing's   ive   been   through
i   can't   just  deal   with   them   like   i   used   to
and now when  im  straiqht  up  feelin   like   shit
its gettin hard to just suck it up and deal with it*

so what if we act like we're
--» ...immature idiots... «--
at  least  were  havin  fun *

You will never forget your first love. That's what makes it so special. You love so hard, so deeply, and so intensely because you don’t know any different. It's the best until it is over. Then you hurt like you've never been hurt before. Eventually you love again, but you love [ differently ]. You will love more *carefully and more *cautiously, continually comparing that person to your first love

-%- the more boys i meet, the more i realize
                                       ii [ only ] want to be with you -%

iF y0u cAnt qeT s0me One
 `·´ OfF yOur MiiNd, ChaNces
  ¦ aRe, thEyre supp0sed tO be
   ` - - - » tHere  

I always knew looking back on the tears would make me laugh,
But I never knew looking back on the laughs would make me cry

A MeMoRy LaStS 4eVeR NeVeR DoEs it DiE TrUe FrieNdS StAy toGeThEr AnD NeVer SaY GoOdByE 

10 random things u like!

[10] friends

[9] pie

[8] cake

[7] cookies

[6] 1/2 baked ben and jerry's ice cream

[5] cheese dip

[4] flip flops

[3] dance

[2] guys

[1] clothes

9 of your cLosesT friends

[9] jam

[8] bree

[7] megan

[6] nicolle

[5] brittany chepolus

[4] brittany lafluer

[3] delinda

[2]jessica duncan

[1] allee kibler

8 things u DON’T like

[8] the sound of chewing

[7] ppl breating loud

[6] ppl lying

[5] ppl saying ur mom

[4] ppl not bein themselves

[3] spinich

[2] drama

[1] guys that treat girls like shit

7 places you would like to visit

[7] Rome

[6] Hawaii

[5] Paris, France

[4] Jamaica

[3] Australia

[2] Madrid, Spain

[1] London, England

6 places where you’ve slept in before

[6] my bed

[5] my couch

[4] the bed in rm 213 at the C'mon Inn

[3] megan hasse's bed

[2] Jam's air matress

[1] my air matress

5 foods you like

[5] cookies

[4] cake

[3] pie

[2] cheese dip

[1] chocolate

4 thingS u wanna d0 b4 u diE

[4] fall in love

[3] get married

[2] get outta Moorhead

[1]  learn to forget and forgive

3 ppl u wanna meet b4 y0u diE

[3]  Usher

[2] Avril Lavigne

[1] the band Staind

2 eventS you will never forget

[2] my parties

[1] my first bf

the 1 person you will always love

[1]  mike cuz i think he mighta been my first love and they say thats the one person u always love

if i were a month i would be: July
if i were a day of the week i would be: Friday
if i were a time of day i would be: 11:11pm
if i were a planet i would be: Pluto
if i were a sea animal i would be: Dolphin 
if i were a direction i would be: North
if i were a piece of furniture i would be:  lazy boy recliner
if i were a sin i would be: sex lol
if i were a historical figure i would be: Abigail Adams
if i were a liquid i would be:  gatorade
if i were a tree i would be:  cedar
if i were a flower/plant i would be:  lili
if i were a kind of weather i would be: rain
if i were a musical instrument i would be: aucustic guitar
if i were an animal i would be: fish
if i were a color i would be:  blue
if i were a vegetable i would be:  cucumber
if i were a sound i would be: thunder
if i were an element i would be:  gold
if i were a car i would be:  mercedes benz
if i were a song i would be:  zoe jane
if i were a movie i would be directed by: steven spilberg
if i were a book i would be written by: nicholas sparks
if i were a food i would be: mashed potatoes
if i were a place i would be:  Rome, Italy
if i were a material i would be: cotton
if i were a taste i would be: sweet
if i were a scent i would be:  fierce
if i were a word i would be: hyper
if i were an object i would be: a mirror
if i were a facial expression i would be: smiley
if i were a cartoon character i would be: stewey
if i were a shape i would be a: cube
if i were a number i would be:  315

well im out lyl Megan

hey guys. im so screwed up right now. like idk i thought i had things figured out until literally like 1/2 an hr ago probably. like i thought i was starting to get over mike then i really sat down and thought bout it and im not. but i think i kinda like this tj aka tyler guy a little bit 2. but idk and even if i do he goes to south and is 18 so i dont think it wud ever work. but i dont think things r ever gonna work w/ me and mike again. i really want them to tho. at least i think i do. this is how i feel bout mike.

"Undiscovered"

Take it back, take it all back now
The things I gave, like the taste of my kiss on your lips,
I miss that now
I can't try any harder than I do
All the reasons I gave, excuses I made for you
I'm broken in two

All the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
Yeah I need you

Don't walk away

Touch me now how I wanna feel
Something so real, please remind me
My love, and take me back
Cuz I'm so in love with what we were
I'm not breathing I'm suffocating without you
Do u feel it too?

All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you
Yeah I need you

When I'm in the dark and all alone
Dreaming that you'll walk right through my door,
Its then I know my heart is whole
There's a million reasons why I cry
Hold my covers tight and close my eyes
Cuz I don't wana be alone

All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you, I need you

Cuz I can't fake and I can't hate
But it's my heart
Thats about to break
You're all I need
I'm on my knees
Watch me bleed
Would you listen please
I give in
I breathe out
I want you, theres no doubt
I freak out, I'm left out
Without you, I'm without
I'm crossed out
I can't doubt
I cry out
I reach out
Don't walk away
Don't walk away
Don't walk away
Don't walk away

good song u shud check it out! its on my playlist so yeah listen to it sumtime.

idk if i like tj for sure cuz i barely kno him. im so confused. i keep think in over mike and then i either talk to him or sit down and really think bout it and i realize im not.

i was lookin thro picz on my computer and theres some from last yr like last day of school my b-day party and then theres sum from the homecoming parade and dance and im like wow ive changed. it makes me cry to think bout how different things r. like honestly ive cried a lot bout it. i just wanna go back and do things over like i wudnt take back things w/ mike but i think i changed them so things wudda worked out w/ us. and i wish i still hanged out w/ all the same ppl and that clothes and hair and make up and the ppl u hang out w/ didnt matter. high schools sooooo effin dumb. im sick of it and its only freshmen yr. i think i need summer to come so i can just get my head straight. i wanna hang out w/ sum of the ppl i havent hung out w/ in a long time this summer... and the new ppl 2. its just things r all a big blah.

gosh darnet my life isnt even hard compared to a lot of pplz. idk its just im so confused and im not used to being confused. i think i lost a lot of independence when i was goin out w/ mike like i used to be fine by myself.

i miss him and idk wat to do like seriously i miss him to the point were when i get off the phone w/ him i start to cry. i hate it. i havent even seen the shithead in 3 wks. so much for hangin out. i wudnt be pissed bout it but hes the one who asked me if i wanted to hang out so it makes things a little different. but i guess ive ditched him b4... but thats only cuz i cudnt get to his house or it was to late. but o well. im out.

pod:jade

sod:undiscovered_ashlee simpson

qod: for sure gosh tyler ur such a loser